SUNDAY, DECEMBER 26 2009 - 4:12pm

Sunday's are probably my favorite day of the week, honestly. PostSecret day. How could it not be my favorite day of the week. So, this week had some pretty good secrets. God, I love them all. But, this is my favorite from this week :)

Sometimes faith is what gives you the capability to see the world the way you do. Without faith, maybe you feel a little less of the beauty. I know, when I lose something - I write better. Alot of people have to suffer for artistry. Personally, I would give up my writing if it mean't I would never lose anything important to me. Speaking of losing things, I've lost all ambition for this posting. Which is weird... I haven't been myself lately. Here's to another week. Goodnight, lovely.

FRIDAY DECEMBER 25 2009 - 9:32pm

Merry Christmas to you, and you and you. Joyeux vendredi, mes amis. So I guess it's time to talk about my favorite part of this past week. Tough call, considering all the good and bad that have gone on. Christmas, Christmas eve, shopping. Oh, plenty. We'll go with something that's kinda lame, but pretty important to me:

It was decided that my relationship was better off as just friends. Of course, that's a spectacular thing to hear (on Christmas eve, for that matter) And as you can imagine - I'm not entirely thrilled. But here's the reason that's important to me - It just so turns out he's my best friend. And if just being friends is what he wants, that's what matters to me. Because he matters to me. Our friendship is kind of amazing, and it means more to me than anything in the world. So, in a way, it's kind of the best Christmas gift I could have gotten from him. All I need is him in my life. And no matter what, I do love him. Things should finally clear up, and I can stop being so friggen cynical all the time. In the words of the text I recieved from a good friend after the break up

"...maybe the good things fell apart, maybe you feel like you did too. better things will come together, and you'll see you're just longing for that feeling of belonging. you missed feeling whole, but all along, you never broke - you just needed someone to show you that all the pieces you had already fit together, and all you are is all someone will ever need. maybe the right someone hasn't come along. you need someone who you can hold together, who will never let you fall apart. when your time comes, you'll look back and see everything you thought left you broken lead you right to where you are - right where you belong."

And the bad things will lead to the good, eventually. I'm very happy - because I do have so much love in my heart for that man, that any way he is in my life, is perfect to me. Now that I'm done with the cheese of the week. I hope everyone's Christmas was merry. Mine was as joyous as possible considering the events that preceded it. Understand what love means, and have a great night. Goodnight, lovely.

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 24 2009 - 12:26pm

Hey Thursday risers, it's fun fact day. In the spirit of Christmas, I found the REAL cost of the twelve days of Christmas in 2009. On the first day of Christmas, MY true love gave to me - a break up. Yes, on Christmas eve. HA! My life sucks, but here's your fun fact of the week. Here we go!

Real Cost Of The 12 Days Of Christmas for 2009:

One Partridge in a Pear Tree: $159

Two Turtle Doves: $56.00

Three French Hens: $45.00

Four Calling Birds: $599.96

Five Gold Rings: $500

Six Geese-a-Laying: $150.00

Seven Swans-a-Swimming: $5,250

Eight Maids-a-Milking: now charging $7.25 an hour

Nine Ladies Dancing: $5,473

Ten Lords-a-Leaping: $4,413.61

Eleven Pipers Piping: $2,284.80

Twelve Drummers Drumming: $2,475.20

So, essentially - the twelve days of Christmas would cost around $23,685.57. That must be one true love. Personally, I'd settle for a nice diamond or something. Where can I find this true love? Someone let me know. Hope everyone's enjoying their holiday's, have some egg nog - leave out the rum, though, darlings. I'm having too much. And while you're enjoying your candy canes, download the song Kung Pao Buckaroo Holiday. Have a good chuckle. Merry Christmas or Happy Holiday's to you all. Goodnight, lovely.

WEDNESDAY, DECEMEBER 23 2009 - 11:29pm

WELCOME TO WEDNESDAY. I like caps lock. It makes me happy. So, bloggly. It's day re-count time. AREN'T YOU SO EXCITED? I am. Lets do this! Dun, dun, dun!

-I woke up to a text from my cousin from Peterborough, asking me if I was working today. I was confused at the fact that my cousin was texting me, and replied that no. I wasn't working, but I would see her at family dinner tomorrow at my house. She abruptly said Ok see you tomorrow bye. Did I mention I HATE abrupt texts? Just saying.

-I was re-woken up by Elizabeth's texts, who wanted to go to the mall! TWO DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS. Today was her Christmas though. Jew.

-Got out of bed, looked at my hair. And decided it was gross. But I didn't care. Washed my face, brushed my teeth, put my hair up. Decided, I did not care.

-Did my make up listening to my iPod. Texted random people. Decided hair needed to come down, took it down. Flat ironed it. Decided it looked better today being disgustingly nasty, but better than normal. I should not wash my hair more often. It had volume. My hair never has volume.

-Liz picked me up. Went to New Sudbury Shopping Centre. Stalked people to find parking spots. LOL'z. Listened to the Hedley's "The Show Must Go". Love. Shopped, bought nothing, everything was blah. And I know Christmas is two days away, so I didn't want to buy anything.

-We went to Old Navy. Bought matching water bottles to mix drinks in for New Years Eve. It's going to be a blasty blast, decided - we are getting wasted. Fun.

-Starbucks was next on the list. Caramel Brulé Frappucino for me, Vanilla Bean Frappucino for Liz, no whipped cream on hers. COOL.

-CAR WASH. CAR WASH. They scare me, holy shit they scare me. But we survived :)

-Went to the gas station, got gas, Liz's Dad measure for wiper blades for the car.

-Went to McDonalds. Ugh, fast food. But, fast food.

-Southridge Mall was next. Wow, it's dead. There is nothing in there. Nothing.

(Did I mention, I saw four present/former Science North employee's throughout the day. That was really, really, really weird.)

-Got dropped off at home. Began cleaning the bathroom, it smelled of lysol and was wonderful. Kaitlyn called. Momma brought home dinner, thanks Momma. Ate quickly. Neighbours showed up. Liz texted me, and wanted to go out to Williams. THANK GOD. I love my neighbours, they're really nice people, but oh my God they are loud. Ate food. Got changed. Left.

-Went to Tim Horton's for coffee with Liz. Hot chocolate, actually. Sat there. Talked. ETC. Then she drove me home :) I love her. She's great. MERRY XMAS LIZZY POO.

-Came home, neighbours still here. Still loud. FML. More cleaning. More phone. More texting.

AND that's about my day up until now. I'm on the phone, talking on MSN. And enjoying the fact that Christmas is nearly over. I'm so stressed out, I can't wait for it to be done. Did I mention, I'm stressed? Oh, God. LET IT END. Hope you're all enjoying your break.
Goodnight, lovely.

MONDAY, DECEMBER 21 2009 - 12:04am

SO even though it's technically not TUESDAY - I'm going to start with TUESDAY because my MONDAY posting will otherwise not be very interesting.

Todays quotation:

"Please don't change.

Please don't break.

Well the only thing that seems to work at all is you..."

-Matchbox 20

Real World

"Yourself or Someone Like You"

Well, what a fantastic song, you might say. Indeed it is. It very much reminds me of what's going on right now. I'm certainly going through what you might think is a little bit strange. The possible loss of someone who means so much to me - who is so much a part of me. I feel kinda sad, so I'm thinking I won't write too much. But, without this person I'm kinda feeling lost and that's not so great. This song is though. Ch-ch-ch-check it out. First post, complete!

Goodnight lovely.