Merry Christmas to you, and you and you. Joyeux vendredi, mes amis. So I guess it's time to talk about my favorite part of this past week. Tough call, considering all the good and bad that have gone on. Christmas, Christmas eve, shopping. Oh, plenty. We'll go with something that's kinda lame, but pretty important to me:
It was decided that my relationship was better off as just friends. Of course, that's a spectacular thing to hear (on Christmas eve, for that matter) And as you can imagine - I'm not entirely thrilled. But here's the reason that's important to me - It just so turns out he's my best friend. And if just being friends is what he wants, that's what matters to me. Because he matters to me. Our friendship is kind of amazing, and it means more to me than anything in the world. So, in a way, it's kind of the best Christmas gift I could have gotten from him. All I need is him in my life. And no matter what, I do love him. Things should finally clear up, and I can stop being so friggen cynical all the time. In the words of the text I recieved from a good friend after the break up
"...maybe the good things fell apart, maybe you feel like you did too. better things will come together, and you'll see you're just longing for that feeling of belonging. you missed feeling whole, but all along, you never broke - you just needed someone to show you that all the pieces you had already fit together, and all you are is all someone will ever need. maybe the right someone hasn't come along. you need someone who you can hold together, who will never let you fall apart. when your time comes, you'll look back and see everything you thought left you broken lead you right to where you are - right where you belong."
And the bad things will lead to the good, eventually. I'm very happy - because I do have so much love in my heart for that man, that any way he is in my life, is perfect to me. Now that I'm done with the cheese of the week. I hope everyone's Christmas was merry. Mine was as joyous as possible considering the events that preceded it. Understand what love means, and have a great night. Goodnight, lovely.
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